Being home during physical distancing has been interesting. I have learned so much about myself and my family. One thing I hope to remember from this experience is that only I can be my son's mom and my husband's wife. Earlier this week, I found myself caring for my husband and son at the same time. As I stood over them, overwhelmed by their needs, it dawned on me that this was the one part of my life that could not be delegated (or at least shouldn't be). My husband and son needed me, and I had to put the outside on pause to meet their needs. People judged me for it, but I didn't care. I understood from times past that my home base takes first place. In the past week, I have had to opportunity to play with my son, do his therapy activities, practice feeding with him, and cuddle. I sit him next to me for my online class and bring him to my office for online bible study. Working from home has allowed me to adjust my schedule based on his needs. I sleep when he sleeps, and try to make sure we get quality bonding time.
It’s different to actually have the energy for home. So often, I give so much of myself to my career that by the time I get home, I have nothing left. I have learned that even when this passes, only mom can be mom. My son loves having me home, and I love being here with him.
Rather than be anxious about when outside is opening again, I realize I am perfectly happy being here, connecting with family and friends to see how they are doing, but centering my schedule based on my family’s needs. Being home makes me happy. Amid a pandemic, I am living the dream.
How is COVID-19 impacting you? I know it can be stressful to work and crisis school. All of our circumstances are different. Share your insights below.