When You Despise the Call: Finding God in Your Resistance

Stop asking why you. God knows what He is up to.

Let’s be real. Sometimes, the call on your life feels too big, too costly, too much. You know what God asked you to do, but instead of running toward it, you’re dragging your feet, questioning your worth, or even wishing the assignment away altogether.

If that’s where you are, you’re not alone. The Bible is full of people who despised the very thing God chose them for, and yet, He still used them.

Here’s what you can do in seasons when you don’t feel like saying “yes,” and proof that even when your “no” is louder than your faith, God’s love is louder than both.

1. Be Honest About How You Feel

God isn’t intimidated by your hesitation.

Moses told God he wasn’t the one for the job. “I can’t speak well,” he said (Exodus 4:10). But God didn’t revoke his assignment, He equipped him.

Your fear is not a disqualification, it’s an invitation to lean deeper into grace.

EZ Breezy Tip: Journal your hesitations. Say them out loud in prayer. God already knows, but something powerful happens when you surrender them at His feet.

2. Stop Running, Start Wrestling

Jonah ran the other way, literally (Jonah 1:3). He was mad that God would use him to show mercy to people he didn’t even like. Sound familiar?

But even in the belly of the fish, God was with him. Jonah’s prayer in chapter 2 reminds us that you can wrestle with God and still be loved by Him.

EZ Breezy Tip: Stop hiding. Start talking to God, even if you’re mad. Especially if you’re mad.

3. Don’t Let Insecurity Talk Louder Than God’s Voice

Jeremiah said he was too young. Gideon said he was too weak. Peter thought he was too shameful after denying Jesus. Each of them had a reason why they weren’t enough.

But God didn’t choose them because they were enough. He chose them to show His power through their weakness.

“Do not say, ‘I am a youth,’” God told Jeremiah. “For you shall go to all to whom I send you” (Jeremiah 1:7).

EZ Breezy Tip: Record yourself reading Scriptures about identity and confidence. Play it every time your inner critic tries to drown out God’s voice.

4. Remember You Were Chosen for Such a Time as This

Esther didn’t want the responsibility of saving her people. She was comfortable in the palace life, quiet, behind the scenes. But Mordecai’s words still ring true:

“Who knows whether you have come to the kingdom for such a time as this?” (Esther 4:14)

Esther’s courage didn’t come from having all the answers. It came from faith in a God who did.

EZ Breezy Tip: Ask yourself, “What lives depend on my obedience?” Write down what’s at stake when you say no, and what’s possible when you say yes.

5. Let God Restore You from the Inside Out

Peter denied Jesus and thought he was done. But Jesus came back for him, specifically. “Do you love me?” He asked three times, once for each denial (John 21:15–17).

Peter’s story didn’t end in failure, it began again in grace. And from that moment, he preached the gospel like never before.

EZ Breezy Tip: If shame has you stuck, ask God to rewrite the story. Restoration is always available. Always.

Whether you’re a runner like Jonah, reluctant like Moses, or restored like Peter, there is room in the Kingdom for your process. God isn’t looking for perfect obedience on the first try. He’s looking for hearts willing to return, even after wrestling, running, or resisting.

So take a breath. You’re still called. You’re still loved. And God’s grace is still chasing you down.

Lord, I don’t always understand why You called me. Sometimes, I want to hide, run, or pretend I didn’t hear You. But today, I’m asking for strength to say yes, even when it’s hard. Remind me that You chose me on purpose, and that Your power is made perfect in my weakness. I surrender. Use me. In Jesus’ name, amen.

What part of your calling are you struggling to say yes to, and which biblical character’s story gives you hope?